Being Mindful

And not realising I’m practicing it, is ace. Take today. I’m in a rage. Inexplicable and blameless. The paranoia and sensitivity levels are high and there’s a trip wire out basically for anybody to trigger my inner spiral of fury and defensiveness.

BUT

As tensions on work emails mount. And everyone is being an idiot, deliberately provoking and victimising me and my position, I can calmly tell myself that it’s me, I’m in the stinking mood here. The situation is trivia, in fact it isn’t even a situation. I can choose to lash out, or to simmer away, knowing that it WILL eventually pass.

I choose the latter. Simmer, simmer. Hours later I’m still feeling al dente at best. Just generally angry. But today I choose to be kind to myself and others crossing my path.

It’s not always this easy. But today I did it.